Consciousness existing in LIFE, but is not LIFE itself: DAY 501
Please refer to THIS POST for full
context and understanding of this Self Forgiveness process as walked by beings
from Heaven / The Afterlife through the Portal
Separating
oneself from the physical, the physical body, this physical universe – all that
is matter:
NOTE: the self
forgiveness here is done in the process us beings walked within and during the
opening of The Portal , stretching from 2004 / 2005 to today– sharing the
timeline of what made us realise to stand in the principle of equality and
oneness and truly understanding the meaning of responsibility and support unto
self and all as self.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to, lifetime after lifetime – the moment after crossing over into the afterlife
– NOT ONCE thank my physical body, this physical existence for seeing me
through each lifetime.
Within this, I forgive myself that I within and
throughout each lifetime – every evening before going to rest and every day
upon awakening: did not exit and enter each day with deep gratitude and
appreciation towards my physical body and this physical existence for its
unconditional support, standing, giving, caring in the way of making life /
being alive possible.
In fact, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to give my body, this physical existence one iota of credence,
honour, respect, love – unconditionally with looking back, throughout ALL my
lifetimes, how I seldom ever even had a thought of consideration towards
anything physical…
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to see, realise and understand how I, within and throughout each and
every single lifetime on this earth – inadvertently blamed my body, this
physical existence, ‘life itself’, for my lifetime experiences I’d walk into.
Essentially thinking / believing the body / physical / ‘life’ was responsible
for my most challenging, difficult,
traumatic events, situations, phases and moments I’d endure. Not ever
realizing, seeing and understanding it was ME, MYSELF & I creating and
manifesting the lifetime consequence and experiences I’d face: my life a true
mirror, a real time living experience reflection of WHO I AM as a being as my
total self definition.
In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to ever see, realise and understand how many varying gods,
deities, entities, spiritualities, movements, religions, opinions and beliefs I
bowed down to – not realizing, seeing, and understand it was the PHYSICAL, this
PHYSICAL EXISTENCE and myself together with all other beings in this EXISTENCE
HERE, TOGETHER AS ONE AND AS EQUAL walking our life processes…that I should
have been ‘blaming’ myself for being blinded and veiled within my own self
separation and inequality for not living with the awareness of what’s real,
here: myself, the physical and this physical existence. In this trinity of me
and so everyone else equally as me – we all together created and manifested the
outcome of the world and the collective and so the personal outcomes of our own
and one another’s.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to partake in the audacious thought of “but why didn’t the physical nor
this physical existence stand up for me???” – once again, looking and blaming
OUT THERE instead of asking the questions we blame others for unto ourselves
and asking ourselves “but why didn’t we stand up for ourselves, our awareness,
the best of ourselves and why do we still continue not doing so, even in the
smallest of moments when it comes to simple thought, emotion, feeling etc.
participation???”
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to see, realise and understand that while I was waiting and expecting
the physical, this physical existence to save me, it has already been walking
its process of self and life awareness, its self forgiveness and change process
on the deep life source level. I have just not been privy to it because of my
accepted and allowed participation in self inequality and separation…so while
everything in this physical has been walking its process, I haven’t experienced
and walked with because process doesn’t exist in inequality and separation, but
here with awareness in the physical.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to see, realise and understand that the physical, this physical
existence, ‘life itself’ within and as everything that is PHYSICAL: was the one
carrying my being, UNCONDITONALLY supporting my being, holding my being in the
HANDS of the Physical as LIFE / God itself…but I was blinded to this fact due
to separating me from myself into consciousness. With this one act of
separation – I separated me from LIFE itself in the physical, this physical
existence and so could not SEE direct, KNOW eternally and FEEL deeply the
oneness and equality and in fact share with this existence and how I have
always been the master, the creator of me, my life, my experiences, and the
consequence I would endure / have to face.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to see, realise and understand how one such act of self separation /
inequality from my being into the Mind Consciousness System as a whole (which is continuing to this day, in every
moment I act upon self separation / inequality the instance I accept and allow
myself to participate in a thought, emotion, feeling etc. – anything OF the
Mind) how one such an act of self separation / inequality without asserting
myself, my stand, my HERE when I notice and know, through and through – that I
am with awareness accepting and allowing myself to participate in inequality
and CHOOSE to not do anything about it when I know I can: is living proof of
how we’ve CHOSEN to create and continue existing as consciousness separation
and inequality and not with and as LIFE AWARENESS as self.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself – throughout all my lifetimes in this world and the next: choose
consciousness before standing up for life as awareness as self, because of my
own fear…rather remaining in captivity and ‘sticking to the program’ / living
in the system than having the guts, courage and tenacity to stand alone, at
first, and not give up in the name of and as life until all notice and see: if
I can stand up, say NO MORE and CHANGE by CHOOSING LIFE as SELF AWARENESS EVERY
MOMENT – so can you.
We’ll continue in the next post with opening the line
of self forgiveness of why it is and has been ever so deliberate from each and
all of us throughout our lifetimes, choosing to align with consciousness instead
of life awareness – also proven by the extent to which we separated ourselves
from the physical body, this physical existence and our equal and one
responsibility unto ourselves and all.